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Hi. I'm damn awake now and i regret sleeping at 2 and waking up at 3.30pm. i know the cycle is gonna repeat, argh i don't wanna get insomnia again. you can guess i'm probably gonna type some rubbish here again but yeah well..it helps to kill time keep me occupied so why not. haha this post is gonna be longg, so maybe you don't wanna continue reading it unless you're bored like me. the weather is so gloomy again and i don't like it one bit because it makes me think alot. I don't know why though, haha.


Anw,something funny/weird happened to me in the afternoon while i was washing my hair. i was just scrubbing like usual and suddenly i saw a guitar pick floating amongst the foamy water on the floor. and for a moment my eyes went O.O and i got a little freaked out but after awhile i guessed it could have gotton stuck to my hair while i was slping. its not surprising since i always leave random stuffs lying on my bed/under my pillow unintentionally.


am still not hungry yet though its 8. had really late lunch at 5.30 just now but there's still dinner so i guess i'll keep that for supper. hopefully i won't get gastric again :s


youtubing at the moment to kill time. i feel happy whenever i hear a good song or one that has really good lyrics. it feels..i don't know what i should use to describe it. comforting maybe?


you know whot,. they always say our body works at one but if that's true why is it always that our mind and heart are always in a conflict. perhaps everyone will feel this at some point in their life or perhaps some already felt it over and over again in their lives. there're just too many things that we will never come to understand and i guess sometimes we just have to get used to life being that way because i've learnt that guessing will bring you nowhere. but the truth is always that time never heals, it only immunes us.


i used to wonder how people could blog on and on about their feelings and stuffs. but now perhaps i could understand. sometimes it doesnt matter if anyone is reading, it doesnt matter if people will ask what you're refering to or anything, it doesnt matter if you're gonna delete it in a day or so after you've had a good sleep and realised you typed something that sounds a little too emotional. whatever it may be, most of the time its only because it helps to make you feel a little better when you feel like you can let out some of what's troubling you and perhaps it could help someone who's feeling the same feel a little better too. sometimes when i read what others feel, it comforts me to know that i'm not the only one who feels that way or has ever felt that way.


there are many things that are so close to the heart that we always find it hard to tell someone about. its neither that there is no one to listen nor they're not close enough to know about such things. sometimes it is that hard that it seems almost impossible.or maybe too confusing that even you yourself don't know how to put it across. i guess the latter makes more sense. it is tooo much easier to just say i'm okay and keep it to yourself. haha yeah if you've ever felt the same way then you get what i mean. at times i feel lucky that i can tell my problems to God. He listens, he keeps your secrets and he offers a solution, even if you may not realise. haha k now,i'm not trying to be holy moly or anything.


i always tell myself that there'll always be another better day. perhaps you may think its childish but it works for me. stops me from brooding over stuffs and making the most out of every day because you never know when is your last.


sometimes i feel lost and empty. i wonder what life is really about. i wonder if i'll grow out of all these.(!!!) i wonder what's ahead of me when i open up my eyes sleepily in the morning everyday. i wonder if tomorrow or the future will be a better day.


but after all these years of living, I've learnt, life is not about regretting what you've done or what you should've done but being thankful for whatever good memories you've had before even if they are too trivial to matter to others. Forget the bad times, or maybe keeping them aside for the rest of your life may seem like a better/easier solution because they're hard to forget.


there are many things that we draft out in our mind, what we'd say if we could just speak about them.if we didnt have to be afraid of how others would feel, if we even had the courage to pour it all out. then we get the impulse to say it all out, all at once. but we never have a chance to say them. either chickened out,figure that we shouldnt start a problem when everything seems good or wake up from a sleep thinking that it was just a silly thought.and its a wonder how humans can convey what they feel in words like 'i love you' but the times we think of somebody, before you sleep, while you were in the middle of doing or something or while walking past an old place, they will never come to know of it.they'll never get a hint of it even. there are times i thought how great life would be if we could read other's mind but then again if this was possible, wouldnt the world be in a chaos?


k this is getting really longg. i'm not sad or anything and i guess whoever who's reading has had enough of my typing. haha. goodbye for now and feel free to speak on the tagboard. this site is dyingg~~ i'll update still whenever i'm free so its not dead yet. :) now, i think i should go get my dinner. have a good day/night everyone [:


though it hasnt been perfect, i don't regret them and never will. they may be the past but i'll remember them always,i know. i'm down it turned out like this but from what i see there isnt going to be a turning point and i know shouldnt wait for miracles to happen anymore because they most probably wont. i don't like it when i wake up feeling disappointed because it was just a dream. i guess its really time for me to stop feeling this way.i've said before its going to be hard, but im gonna have to try my best, though it isnt that i havent tried.(i've lost track of how many times i've edited this because i still feel that i can't express what im feeling exactly)i know at the end of the day i'll still be waiting though, and hoping that a time machine would bring me back to the past, hoping that all these free time that i have now could be channelled back to make up for the loss. i keep thinking perhaps i had a chance but i lost it admist all the busyness or i didnt know how to deal with it yet and it won't be back again.or maybe sometimes, things just change.and the maybes could go on forever. and i hate it that im still holding on to everything and not being able to do anything about it.i miss you.(and hopefully this is gonna be the last time i feel this way)i don't see the point of changing this to super-mini font size because people will end up copy-pasting them and seeing it still in the end.


anw everyone should listen to thisss
the melody is beautiful and it never fails to make me tear when i listen to it alone.
it wasnt easy for me to say all this but i feel so much better.

REMINISCENCES@7:43 PM

Phew, decided to connect my black keyboard back again cause it works best. my fingers can type at such ease now~ haha don't really feel like blogging about prom cause the cyber atmosphere is so prommy now but anw yeah, it was good :) except for the parts the waitress kept blocking our views and distributing dishes at the wrong time. and the rain..which made everything a little more troublesome.


amy came over after we had lunch at ehub(yea horse again) and we happily watched two/three episodes of growing up until we had enough of it then started changing and stuffs. tight for time at the end but luckily there were green cabs.available ones i mean


freaked out in the cab cause my lousy black rubberband that people use in pri schools snapped and i didnt expect it/had no spares/didnt know whot to do. if i let down my hair it would pretty much look like maggie mee, i bet. cab driver's stretchy red rubber band came to the rescue.
amy and i: WAH LUCKYYYYYY..
me:*heaves a huge sigh of relief*


good food,good people, good performances, good entertainment. what else could be better :)
we didnt reach v early so didnt really have time to hang around and stuffs before the night started. the whole night passed damn fast but i think i'd rmb the night for a long time even though it was as if the clock turned 5 times faster. seriouslyyyyyyyy


k i know its getting boring with no pictures but i havent got them +im lazy to upload cause there's tons ( not exactly actually :/) but still, everybody looked good yesterday and it was fun. i guess i dont need to elaborate more~ haha


kk i've been typing this like since 10pm and chatting on msn with 738s trying to multitask badly and failing. ghahah.


goodbye for now (: (walao my paragraphing is spoilt again,irritatingg)

REMINISCENCES@10:29 PM

whee-o-weet hi


finally back home,bathed and my knees and ankles are hurting like mad.went out for a good 12 hours today and we were damn exhausted and slided around malls again. haha i swear i couldnt care less about looking unglam or smth cause i felt like my legs could snap anytime


didnt realllyyy get ALOT of stuffs but somehow our wallets just went empty after a whole day. this reminds me of the omelette rice slurps~ah i wanna eat it now again. J.CO yog ice cream is nice and so were the donut and ice chocolate. k enough about food haha


amy's coming over to paint our nails tomorrow haha so girlyy but sounds fun. [;
anw i think she's gonna get sick of seeing me LOL


argh and i need to learn how to walk properly and stop tripping. i hope i dont end up falling flat on my face one day and smash my nose.that would be disastrous..
some pics from my cmi phone cam. rest in amy's weird vvvibrating cam still.

my mom is gonna love this cause my table looks much neater. i can't believe i bought pink out of alll the colours. amy must have chanted into my right ear.. and.i dont really like using it cause its like not sensitive at all~ moral of the story:black ugly bulky keyboards are the best. but since this is silent and i will be a nice sis and not annoy my sis with the noisy plastic keyboard when she's aslp.

ok im tired of typing. felt like i used 1000J of engery to type this. and i backspaced more than 30 times already.

cant stand it anymore my eyes are closing.

gooooodnight im gonna go have good slp :)

bet i'll be still on the comp by 2+am though.

hungryyyyyyyyyy

(yesss man, blogger's spacing is finally working)

REMINISCENCES@1:10 AM

Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets, so love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who dont, and believe that everything happens for a reason. if you get a chance, take it. if it changes you life, let it.

true enough {:

REMINISCENCES@12:16 AM

hey
today marks the end of slacking cause i'm gonna start revising for mcq tmr though i think its damn stupid hahah. i can't wait for everything to end. its been long enough mugging and i'm tired of it. i'm glad it passed fast once it started(so what jingzhi said was really true[: )the past month has been slow and torturous haha okay i wouldnt say exactly torturous because its actually rather..bearable. but i hate it when i feel like i'll fall asleep like a dead log but once my head hits the pillow, bam im awake. i've got no idea why though, even if im really really tired.


it's been a month or so since i last revived this place,other than ytd. so anw, today we went to give amy a birthday surprise and..HAHA sorry for making your room messier than before.hope you enjoyed yourself haha. had a good lunch and dinner with belle,minlin,jolyn and shuqi:)and this suddenly reminds me of the weird guy righ behind us(to be more exact,right behind jolyn LOL) at the escalator who said 'hi everybardy *big grins*' which saw all of us fleeing from t1 all the way to the mrt station.it was goosebumsy.


we lazed around on amy's bed and played with crappy beads and taking nonsense pictures to entertain ourselves. finally got to hang out with 738s again after sooo long (:


it doesnt feel like its 11.45 now. reached home at 8+ just now and it felt like it was 9+/10. walked home from mall after accompanying jolyn to get her shades and found myself walking+stoning while listening to mp3 all the way home. walking home alone always makes me think alot. k la i wont digress anymore or this post is gonna be never-ending haha


my eyes are tired but i don't feel like sleeping yet/my mind isnt sleepy so somebody tell me howszx?


goodnight.
(sorry for the abrupt ending~ haha my fingers don't feel like moving anymore)

REMINISCENCES@11:30 PM

hi
i was bored so i thought i might as well come round here to update on a bit(: eating cheese meatballs on a rainy day is slurpz and i just had the best nap in this month! slept for 2 hours and ignored my alarm for three times while the rain was pouring outside. {:

whoooooooo i'm here to say, i can finally get a life soon. HAHA i can't even remember the last time i stepped out of the house. gonna catch a movie with jolyn and amy tmr after their 'last paper'. whoo cant wait! :D

kkkkkkkk i'm damn bored goodbye. (: hahah

anw, just a good song to share^^
i couldn't find a better video of it since the html of other one was disabled
i love this songg

REMINISCENCES@11:01 PM

hi (: (no more i'm back, hahaha)


terribly cold weather outside but it's nice. boring afternoon at home but fortunately sis is buying dinner back later so yeah at least i don't be dinner howszxszx? again.just finished doing 5 chapts from poa tys and i don't feel like starting on something else at the moment so..its time to unwind~


haha youtubed the song aud told me about in sch today and its a good song but i hate the way the lyrics seem to make so much senssse.sometimes thats just the way life is, you don't always have the privilege of having choices, but it isnt the end of the world.haha i find it damn amazing how lyrics from numerous songs,in general, are able to speak the many everyday feelings that overwhelm everyone.they're like voices of people from all walks of life.i guess that's just what they're for maybe ~ *shrugs* --stops grandma story--


got back results for most subjects today and went rather well.whoo for chem :)maybe afterall, mrs lim does work wonders.


goodbye(:



It's never enough to say I'm sorry
It's never enough to say I care
But I'm caught between what you wanted from me
And knowing that if I give that to you
I might just disappear


Nobody wins when everyone's losing


[Chorus:]
It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, I can't change your mind
I know it's like trying to turn around on a one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me
And I, I'm starting to see
Maybe we're not meant to be


It's never enough to say I love you
No, it's never enough to say I try
It's hard to believe
That's theres no way out for you and me
And it seems to be the story of our lives


Nobody wins when everyone's losing


[Chorus]


There's still time to turn this around
You could be building this up instead of tearing it down
But I keep thinking
Maybe it's too late


[Chorus]


It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, baby I'm sorry to see
Maybe we're not meant to be

REMINISCENCES@6:08 PM

haha updating for the first in a trillionth years again & i think it'll be the last till sometime late this year. hate insomnia during holidayssss D: anw, this entire week has been mundane and im stuck in a study-sleep cycle. i've got practically nothing interesting to say.

cant wait to prelims to be over though studying is not that much of a dread to me anymore.

just received last payment notice for tuition this year~whoo let's countdown amy! HAHA 6 more tuitions to go. okay nah...6 has better got to be decreasing at a negative rate.

so just now i actually stepped out of the house to get something from tm. then bought bbt which was really filling somehow and 3-ed to tuition.

finally yawned

haha,
Goodnight. gastric and insomnia could just be the worst combination ever

REMINISCENCES@2:00 AM

hi !
HAHAH ytd afternoon sis and mom were packing the store room then we finally found our huge box of albums with all the pictures. so we started browsing and laughing at them. They havent seen light ever since we moved house. Good times, really.


and later at the bottom you'll see my sister with our uber big collection of soft toys in our old house. Haha i think they're all in africa or somewhere now cause my aunt helped donate them to an organisation. everything from garfield to doraemon, bears to pigs, clowns to banana-in-pyjamas. and the funny thing is, most of them came in pairs. haha you know..kids..


with our fav doraemon from dad.

i remember, this is MAGIC LAND. some sort of arcade at...i dont know where. but arcades then were very different.

min lin now you see it! HAHA the mangosteen outside your house i always told you about. I guess this playground has been there for more than a decade.

cheeky.

sorry i dont know what happened and i can't put spacing between the paragraph. goodlucky reading..

this picture reminds me of the time we were so eager to go to a dragon playground in a neighbourhood when we drove past it and we kinda begged our father to stop the car. HAHA and he did. excited all the way, climbing up, couldnt wait to slide down... only to find that it wasnt slippery at all. so we literally had to drag out butts down the slide till we reached the bottom, which felt like it was never gonna end. so we left the place, satisfied :) thats how children are i guess. Loll

comical days 101. haha

whoo this helped to kill my boredom. kay thats all for now :] finally finished revising poa today and attempted abit of geog. yay. i hope i wont become looney by the end of o levels. HAHA

started the day with a frightening morning. I dont know why this seems to always happen to me. its not the first or second time. hahah what do you do if after bathing, suddenly you see this big fat juicy lizard gripping dangerously on the toilet door? yeah,freak out. I'm not really super afraid of lizards but after all these times, i think i do.

spotted a toilet broom and i was exhilarated cause i thought it'll do the job. but NO, it refused to budge. slammed the broom onto the door a few timesstanding at least 2m away. but it had only moved less than 10CM. so...desperate for help i shouted for my mum but she was in the room and nobody heard me. hahah as if the useless broom wasnt enough. sprayed water from damn far away, and it did no help either. finally i decided to be brave, grabbed my towel, covered my big head, opened the door and dashed straight out,cursing that fat piece of shit. PHEW.

end of my exciting day, goodbye. haha I pray it'll never ever happen to me again cause i wasted 10 mins being stuck in the toilet(!!!) hope their eggs get burnt in the lightbulbs like they used to!

REMINISCENCES@9:49 PM

To realize the value of ten years,
Ask a newly-divorced couple.


To realize the value of four years,
Ask a graduate.


To realize the value of one year,
Ask a student who failed a grade


To realize the value of one month,
Ask a mother who has given birth to a premature baby.


To realize the value of one week,
Ask the editor of a weekly newspaper.


To realize the value of one hour,
Ask the lovers who are waiting to meet.


To realize the value of one minute,
Ask a person who has just missed the train


To realize the value of one second,
Ask a person Who has survived an accident.


To realize the value of one millisecond,
Ask the person who has won a silver medal in the Olympics.


sounds cliche, but wow .

REMINISCENCES@10:16 PM

zoom, its sunday again.

Sucks to wake up early..I need some good sleep to fight another week. Well..now i can really see myself being stuck in a cycle. I just cant wait for all these to end. Trying hard not to feel this way because the battle hasn't even begun. haha


Watched the notebook yesterday and today and it's a good movie. was watching nick&norah's indefinite playlist just now before my computer decided to play pranks on me and it was loading and buffering every 3 secs i gave up when the show was halfway through. hopefully it'll load later on!


Sis and Mum just came back from the vet at amk awhile ago.I hope he's gonna be alright..


tired of this mundane life. goodbye for now haha

REMINISCENCES@5:22 PM

Phew, I'm glad its friday.
long week~ ah how come when there's school it feels like eternity for a week to pass. All that i cant think of now is - i -cant-wait-to-sleep. still not quite used to slping/waking up early.

whoo can finally throw chem stuffs out of my head. today was bad. had a bad flu and i swear i was in serious lack of tissue paper. ok i'm not running a fever so i guess im safe, haha. tuition passed fast then home. napped for 45 minutes before tuition and i really couldnt get up till i saw the clock it was 6.15 and i havent even bathed and dig out my notebook.

buddy hoagies with amy and jolyn on thursday! hope she likes the pinata which we painstakingly took 3 days to complete.hahah it was tough..so tough that it couldnt break open.HAHA so jolyn ended up ripping it apart instead.

its been a long week, and whoo finally the weekends :]
haha okay i shall get going, sleepy and bored.

goodbye! have a nice wk ahead. (:
guess i wont be back too soon, hahaha

REMINISCENCES@11:40 PM

Btw, sis and I finally launched our blogshop:D

Nice stuffs and all! brand new instocks.

Do take a look@:

http://hartstown.livejournal.com/

REMINISCENCES@12:11 AM

Heyo. Today is nice caussse there's no sun!
got woken up early in the morning by an annoying neighbour. >:/


totally couldnt open my eyes but dragged myself to open door in the end. the way he talked annoyed the hell out of me. mum woke up to check out the aircon from downstairs and there were only a few drops of water once in awhile though he exagerated as if the water washed his curtains or flooded his entire house.


went back to slp till 3. did one amaths practice paper in the living rm just now which made my butt ache by the time i finished. nutella bread for dinner since i had late lunch. i think sis and i are addicted to it,hahaha.


Finally went out with 738s 438s yesterday.[: it was drizzling the entire day. walked alot around town then had dinner with jolyn at cs. took neoprints at cineleisure and it has been a million years since we did. Haha the machine was damn fast and when amy wrote the last l -u-v-:-) we were shrieking+'phew!!!' k i'm lazy to elaborate. was a good day :) had fun and minlin was lost in our conversations but we manage to catch her back (!!) or at least hopefully. haha

tmr's gz gathering at angie's house but i'm gonna give it a miss cause we're celebrating my cousin's birthday. :( /:) prob going cycling or something. its thursday today again! time flies doesnt it..

okay goodbye/night :3

REMINISCENCES@11:26 PM

Well, im supposed to be dreading eap tmr and stuffs now but you know what,eap is cancelled~ haha ok i know everyone should know of it by now. woke up at 4pm and today's fathers' day! sis and i (guess i wasnt really of much help LOL) made a full container of chocolate cornflakes with hundreds and thousands for him. fav [: after work mum and him went for supper and he smsed sis and i thnks and he's having breakfast with mum. Haha breakfast at 1am? yeah..


Having a good time slacking and stoning at home in front of the comp &listening to music after late lunch and tv though it gets kinda boring. guess im gonna just..rest for today. there's a whole week for work since there's no sch. its time to kick my habit of procrastination~but sometimes i'm surprised at myself when i sit down for half an afternoon to complete whatever has to be done that day. quiet afternoons are the best for studying

Finally went out with audrey yesterday. didnt see her on the mrt after i told her that the mrt was reaching soon. then i found out that she was a different train. and alas we managed to get onto the same train. lost my sense of direction at kembangan and walked back and forth from the front of the station to the back and front again thinking i was on the wrong side. a few looked as if i was crazy cause i saw Joo Koon-2 mins and realised i was on the wrong side.so i walked at spd 100km/hr to the other end. you know the train always comes when there's still a min left~


aud wanted to get the picks so we went to get them before walking around.got myself some too, again. though i know i'll always end up using my fav ugly purple or black pick. D: rested at mac for awhile and walked around a bit at marina sq since it was just in front of us. got home around evening for dinner with my couz like usual. bought something from the flea market on the way home since it was nice and really cheap. (:


some random and candid pictures from yesterday.

we wanted to take a better picture but there was this china man walking around surreptitiously so we just took our stuffs and went off.

gahhh its 7+ already. the sucky part of getting up late. so i'm gonna sleep again in 4+ hours ??

hate insomnia. been having alot of difficulty sleeping lately. but why , beats me too. haha time to get my haywire bodyclock back to the norm or i'll have hell when school reopens.

nothing else for now. goodbye (:

REMINISCENCES@6:34 PM

Good Songs,enjoy. :)

REMINISCENCES@2:05 AM

hiiiiiiiiiiii.
this post is gonna be real boring cause we didnt take any pics today~anyway, met amy in the afternoon at pasir ris and hahah i dont know how we ended up laughing at each other while we were say at least 25 metres away. We went all the way to FEP and left the place in less than 2 hours. hahah so all we did there was to eat and maybe walk abit. HAHA plus we were talking halfway and then sidetrack and randomly said F C**C****** at the same time. okay i cant type what it is cause its just..really doesnt sound right here. :/ i know the previous sentences dont really make any sense. haha, then went wisma for a teeny weeny while since there was a connection or whatever you call it to the mall from the mrt station


Chionged trains at Cityhall mrt like regular idiots. walked abit bugis and haji lane for awhile before tuition. haha ice cream @pluck then went off for tuition. then as if we still had time, we walked at speed x10 to ehub for cupwalker then cabbed to tuition. haha argh bus 3333333333 is forever coming at the wrong times. Then yeah tuition and homed. graph-drawing was boring to shitz.


the way back to pasir ris on the mrt was terrible...TOTALLY SARDINES. people shoving around, people trying hard to hold their balances, weird smell..the cabins were packed all the way to bedok. then phewwwwwwwwwwww. bet everyone knows how it feels. haha k random


all in all today was rather good:)


k time to get out of blogger.
goodnight :]

REMINISCENCES@10:57 PM

I'm back. haha havent been here for long again. the past week and this week had been eventful. Tried studying chinese just now but sometimes i really dont know where to begin. Ahhh im dreading monday but on the other hand i've got to really buck up and try harder. School this week has been boring since there's intensive MT~ its really not that bad after all but at times i feel quite drained by it.

gotta go try and do something productive now. go me~
haha this is probably a lie because i know the chances of me getting my engine starting is like...0.0001% byyyyyye.

Courage is fear that has said its prayers

REMINISCENCES@8:17 PM

hahah i think for once im back as i've said~ just a short post here cause im running out of time. haha my aunt is staying over at my house again and she gotta sleep soon. whoo this weekend was rather great. Sunday was suntec and dinner after that. Monday was spent with family at kuishin-bo at suntec. it was fun :] k this sounds kinda kiddy. but whatever LOL

anwwww, just a few pics here
goodnight:)

REMINISCENCES@11:01 PM

ME IS BACK!
haha hey. long time since i've been here. anyway, new skin and my internet explorer is still being irritating.shouldnt have downloaded the zango toolbar crap long ago. anw, whoooo exams are over like, finally ;) after countless days and nights of cramming.

this blogskin is kinda colourful so sorry if it hurts your eye or ~! (go look at some grasses) anywayyyy, i'm really sleepy today and i still am. Went out with 738s after their bio exam and shopped for quite awhile before amy and i left for tuition. argh the next thing im looking forward to is fridays without tuition man (!!!)

havent been posting for a real long long time and i guess many people would have stopped visiting but wait,,,come back and make this place alive again yeah. hahah ok my eyelids like 1mm apart now, goodbyez. i'll be back again soon:] (haha though i always say that but never do~)

REMINISCENCES@12:11 AM