this post is gonna be wordy. you can choose to read, or not to. no offence about the contents. i needddddd to pour everything out or i'm gonna die of some abcdefghijkl disease. LOL
Its difficult not to feel disappointed and passed over. Many a times, (I've told many people, LOL) after the surge of short-lived anger, follows disappointment. What if one day you woke up and realised the people whom you've always thought were by your side fled to nowhere and what if you realised these people are those who did not bother to value your friendship with them& in their list of priorities, friendship is somewhere down down down-right at the bottom.
I won't deny that everyone would always put themselves in such a position that they're not at fault. Its the naturrrrre of humans. We'd come up with all sorts of excuses and solutions that will benefit ourselves. lmao, lets laugh at ourselves.
And you were like a tornado. Started by whipping up and destroying everything in your path, put everyone through a turbulence and alas, fled to a faraway place -leavin us with all the debris. aint that cool ^^
Okay, neither depressed nor trying to be sacarstic. I need to expel these emotions out of my system. At some points of time, I'm angry. At other points of time, disappointed- with the people whom have changed. or probably, shown their true colours. nobody knows, nobody knows what's going on behind closed doors behind the many facades that people put up. Time shows alot of things. It doesnt matter who believes and who does'nt, God knows. & of course, you yourself.
Until the day i saw the stranger that was you, i could'nt believe the change you've gone through.(oh i mean, how much of your true colours you've shown me) even until now(and i mean now.), i cannot bring myself to believe that all this while you've been putting on a facade & that you're not the person i knew. You've shown me too much, too much i'm afraid i won't be able to handle more.
I still recall something that you said about being friends. These words that no longer hold anymore meaning at this point of time. Convenience can comfort you now however, the words that you said and the things you've done can never be taken back. It suddenly seems pointless for me to work things out, whats holding me back? It takes two hands to clap. All the things you did, they just haunt me so much.
I still can't describe how i'm feeling. This sucks big time, yeah. LOL
Its okay, tomorrow is a brand new day, a new beginning
People fall, people get up. This time we'll get up, stronger : )
I'm sorry, I'm not perfect
